Recent AIM Conversation

Here's a snippet from a recent instant message conversation with a friend:

me: but my life is busy busy
friend: savin the world and what not
me: actually yeah kind of
me: as part of a collective effort I actually do believe I am saving the world

Have you been reading this blog lately?

I haven't! I fear my writing output has been sporadic lately and I also haven't been editing very carefully. I can't get stats on who has been reading due to technical difficulties but I know readership has been down. What am I going to do to fix the problem? Nothing! I have other business to attend to.

Big Guns

So I got into a fight Sunday. Its not clear if there were any real winners or losers in this fight. The truth is that there never are, but in the court of public opinion I whupped some serious ass and looked cool doing it. My squad leader (? It's actually not clear what his professional relationship is to me, he's really just another NCO in the platoon) was leading the morning run and mentioned how he saw some "big guns go off Sunday. Some artillery rounds landed, but I didn't see any jabs... Throw some jabs". I replied with a "Hooah Sergeant!" I will next time.
I am actually angry at myself for being drawn into a fight, but the other party pretty clearly provoked me and everybody knows he doesn't like me, since I told them before. He doesn't have any real reason I can think of for not liking me; at least not any reasons I can think of that I can mention without opening a huge can of worms. I am willing and prepared to open the can though and I wish he knew that. I can make just as much trouble as him only I prefer to go about it in a different way.
I want desperately to ask him some questions. "Why for someone who is obviously not stupid are you so unswervingly belligerent?" "What good reason do you have to be angry with me?" I've done some things that could make a reasonable person angry, but I've also done everything I could to make them right. "Why don't any of your friends seem to be angry with me?" If I really was such a bad person someone else would probably come out and say so? I don't know maybe I am just a stellar politician. I do know that I am more popular than he is. I am hoping that no one is on his side, naturally.
I even went and knocked on his door today to give his roommate something. When he answered the door my natural reaction was to kill him but my entire life has been about suppressing my animal urges and my natural reactions. I believe in self-control. Even he showed some measure of self control and didn't try to strangle me.
In the meantime, I am a little sore but my pride is intact. I was already planning on taking martial arts classes, I'll just begin tomorrow. (Which is what I have been saying for weeks, but I mean it now. Seriously...)