An environment of pain, suffering, and violence

I motivate myself with self abuse when I work out. I scream, grunt, and curse. I like loud music when I lift weights. I am trying to create an environment of pain, suffering, and violence when I work out. It works pretty well for me. Working out is usually a social activity but for me perhaps, exercise should be a solitary activity.
I was in the weight room the other day trying to motivate myself between sets and began talking to myself: "You said you wanted to step up the ************* intensity, so step it up!"
I thought I was speaking under my breath but the opened-mouth stare of a man just a few feet from me told me otherwise. I immediately explained between laughs that I was talking to myself and meant no offense. I suppose I was lucky he wasn't bigger.

Chillin'

I make a point of not talking about what goes on in Iraq to the point of paranoia. I also realize that many of the people who read this website have ways of getting this information without me. So most of you know what it is that I am not talking about. So I don't even need to talk about whatever it is that I am not talking about, and... this is getting tiresome. Just check your email for crying out loud! (A good place to find things I don't talk about are at Ryan Kirk's blog and at the Family readiness page)
There are those in my platoon who have been visiting my website from time to time and directing others to visit. I think they might be a little disappointed in what they find or don't find on the blog. For instance, there are no pictures here! Imagine that. Have fun reading.
As the title suggests, I am just chillin'. Just a little longer...