Once again I wussed out and didn't leave early enough to catch the train to school, so I drove. The results were a disaster :p
I didn't update from school today because the teacher left a note on the desk explaining in no uncertain terms that she wanted nobody using the computers - no students, no teachers, and definitely not this sub! Nonplussed, I went to the library at lunch to find access. It turns out that the library computers are prehistoric dinosaurs - like many of the computers in DISD - with no internet access! Oh the horror! There is one other place that had access in T.J. Rusk Middle School, room 203, tended by the amiable Mr. Morris. I didn't catch up with him till after school when he was locking up and I was getting ready to leave. (I thought) He was only too happy to give me access - tomorrow.
Since Ms. Eldridge, the teacher I am subbing for, didn't have any classes scheduled for the final 45 minutes of school, the school administrators bade me depart and enjoy my evening. Knowing my car wouldn't start without a good electric shock, I asked the lady at the front desk if anyone could give me a jump. She called the janitor and he obliged. He rolled his cherry red classic automobile over to my cheap '87 Camry and fried both of our batteries. (He was able to drive off though) The instant I clamped the positive terminal to the jumper cables it set fire to the contacts of the batteries, melting my battery's positve terminal and leaving a scorch mark on the body of the car where I had clamped the negative clamp of the jumper cables.
I realized that by know my battery was a lost cause. The contact on the positive terminal was now a charred scrap of metal with a bolt in it. I called my mom and she dispatched my brother to deliver a new battery and contact. After about an hour of driving by and through and under some of the most fearsome traffic in the Dallas area, Nosa exited on Mockingbird lane and turned left into the beautiful old money neighborhoods of Univerty Park. This would usually be a good thing as University Park is very scenic, unfortunately Inwood Road is to the right off the Tollway on Mockingbird. So around, 5:30 or 6. after stopping at a nearby elementary school on Inwood to look for me, Nosa rolls up in his shiny champagne colored '89 BMW (no, I am not jealous, I swear!) and delivers the new parts. The contact doesn't fit right and the battery is a little big but we try anyway. No juice. :( We quickly discovered that the 80 amp fuse on the positive terminal had been burnt by the impromptu barbecue the janitor and I had held earlier. So we stripped the car of is it valuables - took all of 30 seconds - to prevent theft and went home.
10.04.2002
10.03.2002
Random weird blog of the night! This couple needs to chill, really. (The truth is that I am just jealous!)
I have to ask what the men mentioned in the article were thinking? Hey, lets go visit a murderer and plead to negotiate with him, look like buffoons and get sympathy from other bleeding heart liberals like ourselves!
Competing review blogs. Cool.
I had a weird prescient dream again last night. I mention it now because it seemed as if something was working to make it come true. I saw my friend Marcela (she's my friend who likes her venus) and her roommate Crystal under a marquee. I was across the street about to go into a storefront that housed a club or bar and they wanted to come too - which they shouldn't since they are both sweet and mostly innocent church girls. I walked in and they started too only to be confronted by the Assistant Pastor of my church. What he was doing there at a night club I am not sure. I felt that I should mention this dream because tonight who should I see in church but Marcela and Crystal! The dream didn't come true and isn't likely to come true since Crystal is moving to New Hampshire and Marcela is moving back in with her family here in Dallas. If it does come true, I want it documented here.
I had a weird prescient dream again last night. I mention it now because it seemed as if something was working to make it come true. I saw my friend Marcela (she's my friend who likes her venus) and her roommate Crystal under a marquee. I was across the street about to go into a storefront that housed a club or bar and they wanted to come too - which they shouldn't since they are both sweet and mostly innocent church girls. I walked in and they started too only to be confronted by the Assistant Pastor of my church. What he was doing there at a night club I am not sure. I felt that I should mention this dream because tonight who should I see in church but Marcela and Crystal! The dream didn't come true and isn't likely to come true since Crystal is moving to New Hampshire and Marcela is moving back in with her family here in Dallas. If it does come true, I want it documented here.
10.02.2002
I have seen the bad things in Netscape 4.X browsers. I need to see the bad things in Internet Explorer 4.X browsers again. I am very distressed that I should have spent so much time getting my layout right and then find out that it is still not working quite right. Code wise I am going to change a lot but the page should be essentially the same visually as much as possible between versions. I might try to get by with less Javascript though. Maybe use some noscript tags. Anybody trying to edit a website to look good in across browsers would probably be interested in this.
I am teaching today at T.J. Rusk Middle School in the Bachman Lake area of Dallas near Love Field. I am teaching a computer literacy class in which kids are not allowed to touch the computers! Go figure... Something deep within me instinctively rebels at the policy of this class. The children are well-behaved though. The teacher I am subbing for has a reputation as someone who I don't want to trifle with, which probably explains why the children are so quiet - they're terrified.
I spent all day yesterday fixing my car. The alternator belt had snapped the night before and in the morning as I was driving to my next sub assignment the radio began to blink on and off until finally the car died quietly and rolled to a stop on the shoulder of the road right at the Tollway South exit on 635. Fortunately cars are not like people and they can be resurrected after they die - especially since we kill them almost everyday. My Dad went to Auto Zone and got a loaner battery for me and Nosa (my brother) and I drove out to pick it up. The car started right up as soon as we put the battery in and we drove it to Autozone. The helpful store employee immediately noticed that the belt was gone and I used the refund from the loaner battery to replace the belt. THis part should have been easy but since this is my life and not a story from somebody else's life it was not. The alternator had a bolt we needed to loosen that had been worn almost completely round. No amount of profanity and elbowgrease could loosen it using the adjustable wrench I had brought with me. Chris, the store employee, and I struggled futilely for the better part of an hour. Finally, another store employee came out and removed the bolt in 30 seconds using the same tools we had been using. Replacing the belt from here was easy or should have been. As soon as we got the belt on, adjusted the tension correctly, and replaced the worn out bolts, I charged the battery and tried to leave. The car began to shake, smoke, and screech. I started to just drive home and ignore the problem but good sense prevailed over sheer exasperation. Chris had left by this time but I popped the hood anyway and begged a store employee to tell me what was wrong. He immediately diagnosed the problem as a bad air conditioning compressor. AC compressors cost around $200 to replace with around $500 dollars in labor; but since I could do without the AC he recommended just getting a shorter belt and removing the old AC compressor. I could do this myself he said; but who should I see outside of the Autozone? My new friend Chris! Chris and I rattled back to my house and wrestled the compressor out of the guts of the old Camry and replaced the belts once more using my Dad's shiny new ratchet set - something we could have really used about an hour before. I took Chris back to his apartment with the promise to get in touch in the future. So I spent a grand total of $20 dollars (Dad's money) that day fixing my car, could have been worse, but I also lost $70 dollars of income by not going to my sub assignment. Public transportation looks really good right now.
I spent all day yesterday fixing my car. The alternator belt had snapped the night before and in the morning as I was driving to my next sub assignment the radio began to blink on and off until finally the car died quietly and rolled to a stop on the shoulder of the road right at the Tollway South exit on 635. Fortunately cars are not like people and they can be resurrected after they die - especially since we kill them almost everyday. My Dad went to Auto Zone and got a loaner battery for me and Nosa (my brother) and I drove out to pick it up. The car started right up as soon as we put the battery in and we drove it to Autozone. The helpful store employee immediately noticed that the belt was gone and I used the refund from the loaner battery to replace the belt. THis part should have been easy but since this is my life and not a story from somebody else's life it was not. The alternator had a bolt we needed to loosen that had been worn almost completely round. No amount of profanity and elbowgrease could loosen it using the adjustable wrench I had brought with me. Chris, the store employee, and I struggled futilely for the better part of an hour. Finally, another store employee came out and removed the bolt in 30 seconds using the same tools we had been using. Replacing the belt from here was easy or should have been. As soon as we got the belt on, adjusted the tension correctly, and replaced the worn out bolts, I charged the battery and tried to leave. The car began to shake, smoke, and screech. I started to just drive home and ignore the problem but good sense prevailed over sheer exasperation. Chris had left by this time but I popped the hood anyway and begged a store employee to tell me what was wrong. He immediately diagnosed the problem as a bad air conditioning compressor. AC compressors cost around $200 to replace with around $500 dollars in labor; but since I could do without the AC he recommended just getting a shorter belt and removing the old AC compressor. I could do this myself he said; but who should I see outside of the Autozone? My new friend Chris! Chris and I rattled back to my house and wrestled the compressor out of the guts of the old Camry and replaced the belts once more using my Dad's shiny new ratchet set - something we could have really used about an hour before. I took Chris back to his apartment with the promise to get in touch in the future. So I spent a grand total of $20 dollars (Dad's money) that day fixing my car, could have been worse, but I also lost $70 dollars of income by not going to my sub assignment. Public transportation looks really good right now.
Another link from the Shack. This has the potential to be very cool and very powerful. Decentralized, super-resilient world wide networking using peer to peer techniques. It also has the potential to get lobbied to hell by Hollywood.
Are games overpriced? Link stolen from Shacknews.
I was reading Scary Duck today, and I realized that my blog cannot be like his. The emphasis in my blog is on the now.The past is only relevant when it illuminates the present.
I was reading Scary Duck today, and I realized that my blog cannot be like his. The emphasis in my blog is on the now.The past is only relevant when it illuminates the present.
10.01.2002
By the way, my apologies to anyone reading this blog on Internet Explorer 4 or earlier. I think it should look ok on Internet Explorer 5, 5.5, 6, later versions of Netscape, Mozilla and Opera; but I recently saw it on a computer with Internet Explorer 4 and it was awful. I am not sure how to go about fixing that either since I don't have access to any computer with IE 4 installed on a regular basis. I already use a bit of Javascript trickery to make it work on certain browsers but I think that IE 4 doesn't support the version of Javascript I need. It is going to take a clever bit of coding to fix this. All I have to do is find the energy to fix it. :(
The most striking thing to me about political discourse in Amerca is the villification of people who differ ideologically from the speaker's postion. Not only are you right, but everyone else is the enemy of all that is good and holy and or a cretin because they don't agree. The amount of distrust peopIe have for those that disagree is staggering. I can't imagine that rational people differ much from me but I realize that political ideology and religion are a function of upbringing and environment. In fact, I believe one's profession has a large impact on both. I am a republican and I admit the republican party is the party of power and privilege. You are a Republican if you feel you have built something (or will build something) you need to protect. Democrats are crusading to better society by fighting seeming injustice in the world.
What shocks me in religion and politics, is how radical and ill-considered many people's postitions are. Paranoia, and ignance dominate the average persons view of politics, so honestly I disregard most non-professional political discourse. What disturbs, but does not surprise me, is the cynical way people in politics use ignorance and paranoia to advance their postions. I am glad the average person doesn't get much involved, because the average person knows bloody nothing about politics and usually gets cleverly manipulated by powerful people to advance their secret agendas.
In spite of it all, I like the fact that we have an adversarial system. I think centrism is dangerous and unproductive. Relentless centrism in France nearly resulted in the election of a radical bigot. Centrism kills enthusiasm and muddies the political waters. Why does it matter who you vote for when the candidates are both racing to the center, and in effect screaming, "Elect me or my twin in the other pary!" Politics in America is in need of a few radicals to polarize the discussion. By pushing, everybody to the fringes and outraging the populace, radicals make room for a new leader to galvanize and unite the public by coming back to the newly opened center. America is an adversarial system and itis important that the political parties remain adversaries. Agreement simply wouldn't do. America arrives in the middle by allowing each side to push against one another. Hence, the American penchant for electing a house and senate opposed to the president.
The upshot of having an adversarial system that the only people who are involved in politics in anything approaching a knowledgeable or reasonable manner are the people with strong ideologies or interests- the very liberal, the very conservative, the very old, and the very weird. Nobody else beleves strongly enough to care. The solution is to introduce a few radicals into the scene. People will either get very pissed off and vote or develop some crazy ideas of their own and take to the streets to proselytize others. A net gain either way. Gridlock and partisanship is a good thing, believe me!
What shocks me in religion and politics, is how radical and ill-considered many people's postitions are. Paranoia, and ignance dominate the average persons view of politics, so honestly I disregard most non-professional political discourse. What disturbs, but does not surprise me, is the cynical way people in politics use ignorance and paranoia to advance their postions. I am glad the average person doesn't get much involved, because the average person knows bloody nothing about politics and usually gets cleverly manipulated by powerful people to advance their secret agendas.
In spite of it all, I like the fact that we have an adversarial system. I think centrism is dangerous and unproductive. Relentless centrism in France nearly resulted in the election of a radical bigot. Centrism kills enthusiasm and muddies the political waters. Why does it matter who you vote for when the candidates are both racing to the center, and in effect screaming, "Elect me or my twin in the other pary!" Politics in America is in need of a few radicals to polarize the discussion. By pushing, everybody to the fringes and outraging the populace, radicals make room for a new leader to galvanize and unite the public by coming back to the newly opened center. America is an adversarial system and itis important that the political parties remain adversaries. Agreement simply wouldn't do. America arrives in the middle by allowing each side to push against one another. Hence, the American penchant for electing a house and senate opposed to the president.
The upshot of having an adversarial system that the only people who are involved in politics in anything approaching a knowledgeable or reasonable manner are the people with strong ideologies or interests- the very liberal, the very conservative, the very old, and the very weird. Nobody else beleves strongly enough to care. The solution is to introduce a few radicals into the scene. People will either get very pissed off and vote or develop some crazy ideas of their own and take to the streets to proselytize others. A net gain either way. Gridlock and partisanship is a good thing, believe me!
The entertainment industry is a tool of Satan. The gist of the article is that Hollywood intends to use copyright law as a legal bludgeon to amass wealth for itself and deprive the public domain of necessary new material.
I just got an email from the guy who updates the imakecontent blog. Cool guy (he responds to email!) and he received second place (and a cool hundred pounds) in the "Best British Blog" contest.
9.30.2002
How do teachers live on such tiny lunches? Most of the female teachers I see carry tiny lunches in neatly packaged tupperware. A lot of the male teachers just eat the cafeteria food - greasy hamburgers, pizza, etc. I am teaching today at Raul Quintanilla Sr Middle School, a bright, shiny, new middle school in a middle class part of Oak Cliff. (Middle class neighbiorhoods in Oak Cliff!) The teacher I am subbing for, Ms. Mogilniki , (I am certain that I misspelled her name) wrote a note saying that I was teaching a special group of students; and they are. I have never taught a class as quiet as the first period was. The second period class was a little rambunctious and a fire drill interrupted class, but thus far has been mostly uneventful. The only thing that happened to day is that a girl in class noticed that my nails had been polished. I had a manicure before the modeling work, because I had been told that it was a good thing to do before a shoot.
I just realized something about how the substitute system works in DISD - teachers must have a deadline on illness absences of 10:30 of the night before. So they delay calling until the last second and since the system only calls out untl 10:30 none of the jobs get assigned until the next morning. DOH! That's why I have to call in to get work.
9.29.2002
My biggest dilemma with employment right now is my need for short term employment to finance my pursuit of more lucrative long term employment. Over the sumer, I realized that it was imperative that I have a job while I was looking for long-term employment. The problem with substitute teaching is that the amount of preparation required before cashing in. It took a month of paperwork before I could work and now I must wait a month for my first paycheck. The only reason I can afford the delay is that I live with my parents. If I was renting an apartment I would be working at McDonald's.
My other problem is maintaining the drive and focus I need to continue pursuing a better job. All my friends who were previously unemployed have since found well-paid entry-level positions. Definitely not at the ridiculous dot com levels but still respectable considering the low cost fo living in the Dallas/Fort Worth area. I am so anxious to not oversell my skills that I suspect that I dangerously handicap my job search. Not only that, but I am so frsutrated with the availability of jobs in the tech sector that I often fail to find and follow through on job leads.
Maybe I'll just go back to school. :|
My other problem is maintaining the drive and focus I need to continue pursuing a better job. All my friends who were previously unemployed have since found well-paid entry-level positions. Definitely not at the ridiculous dot com levels but still respectable considering the low cost fo living in the Dallas/Fort Worth area. I am so anxious to not oversell my skills that I suspect that I dangerously handicap my job search. Not only that, but I am so frsutrated with the availability of jobs in the tech sector that I often fail to find and follow through on job leads.
Maybe I'll just go back to school. :|
I need a new employment strategy. I'll make decent but not great money substitute teaching. I enjoy it immensely because it fits my character. I get to hang out with teenagers and essentially babysit most of the time since the teachers don't trust me to actually teach. $70/day for a high school assignment (8 AM to 3:45 PM) works out to a little less than $10/hr. With my diploma it will be right at $10/hr. Time for church! More later..,
9.28.2002
Pictures are nice and all, but I just realized that it might help to have some text describing where these jeans come from. So here it is:
- Armani Exchange Low Rise Jean
Extra low rise jean is slim fitting through the thigh. Stonewashed, handbrushed, and tinted to give a worn appearance. Sizes: 28" - 38" waist regular/long
Style B6J67TR - 1010.10352.7067
$88.00 - Armani Exchange Low Rise Straight Leg Streaked Stretch 5-Pocket
Light stone washed low rise jean is streaked throughout with a two-tone treatment. Easy fit. Straight leg. Shown in indigo. Sizes: 28" - 36" regular 30" - 38" long
Style B6J65MO - 1010.10366.7650
$88.00 - Levi's Skinner™ Low Rise Boot Cut Jeans
• Low front & back rise
• Sexy fitting boot cut for men, fits close in the seat and thigh
• 19.75" leg opening
• 100% cotton - Levi's Low Rise Boot 527™ Jeans • Low cut for a confident look
• Slim fit, boot cut
• 18.5" leg opening
• 100% cotton - Levi's Low Rise Straight 529™ Jeans • Low cut for a confident look
• Loose fit, straight leg
• 19.5" leg opening
• 100% cotton
I just wrote and lost this long post about how cool Alltheweb.com is because it actually brings up this blog. The Blogger software seized up and destoryed the text of the post when I tried to publish it. :(
Today was a slow day. No school to teach, nothing big to do. I played a little soccer and slept. I think I'll go to bed early. I need to write some code. I have been meaning to code up a version of Pong forever and I have even designed C++ code to do it. I just can't bring myself to do it. I need to use my coding skills before I lose them and become irrelevant.
9.27.2002
Kausfiles points out some interesting welfare trends. That welfare rolls are still shrinking and poverty among black children is down, despte the recession.
Here Oliver Willis argues that Gore is not soft on Iraq but is arguing a point that is consistent with his past postions. I agree. Al Gore is still flat-out wrong. To all the people who claim a political motivation for Bush's stance on Iraq and suggest peaceful solutions for ousting Mr. Hussein, I ask if they have been paying attention for the past eleven years. We have attempted other solutions and in the current climate we simply can't wait for Hussein to fall over and die (the only reliable way of replacing dictators and strongmen) for us to replace him. My contention is that Saddam Hussein will kill many Americans sooner or later and we won't even know we have been hit. Michael Kinsley from Slate.com is wrong, Joe Klein from Slate.com is wrong, Al Gore is wrong, and Oliver Willis is wrong!
Florida State goes down for a second year in a row!
Let me take a moment to state my opinion that expecting a team of college kids to defeat every other group of college kids they meet is ridiculous. College football is the only sport that predicates ultimate victory on perfection. College football needs three things:
The majority of schools have no business fielding major college football teams. Football is an expensive, brutal sport that crowds out other sports and cause strife on campus. I love football, but football loses money for all but the biggest schools. I don't support football when it's not self-sustaining or near self-sustaining. Title IX is a good thing and women deserve to play sports just as much as men do, that is not the problem. The problem is that most schools cut men's programs to find money for women's programs because football is draining massive sums of money from their programs.
The bowl system in football is a laughable, inequitable, haphazard method of determining a champion. The only sure way for anyone to know who is truly the best is through a playoff system. Shorten the season, use the lower tier bowls to eliminate teams, and move up to another tier of bowls to decide who advances to the next round. Finish everything the week before the Super bowl. It can't be that difficult!
A problem in all major college sports and not just football is that athletes are under-compensated. Granted a college education in exchange for athletic talent is a fair trade, but these students often have basic financial needs that go unmet and coaches and alumni aren't allowed to help. Students are also forced to pay for tings like health insurance out of their own pockets and simultaneously not allowed to work to make money to pay for these things. Based on my personal experience with college athletics, as soon as I knew I could make anything more than $100,000 playing a sport I would leave school. The average starting salary in computer science is $40,000 and for other fields entry level positions often pay just $30,000 a year. Staying in school and taking the abuse simply makes no sense unless you come from a middle class or wealthy home, with parents that will support you should you be injured and need support to finish college. Schools just don't provide enough incentive to remain in school.
Let me take a moment to state my opinion that expecting a team of college kids to defeat every other group of college kids they meet is ridiculous. College football is the only sport that predicates ultimate victory on perfection. College football needs three things:
- A playoff system.
- Fewer teams.
- Better compensation for players.
The majority of schools have no business fielding major college football teams. Football is an expensive, brutal sport that crowds out other sports and cause strife on campus. I love football, but football loses money for all but the biggest schools. I don't support football when it's not self-sustaining or near self-sustaining. Title IX is a good thing and women deserve to play sports just as much as men do, that is not the problem. The problem is that most schools cut men's programs to find money for women's programs because football is draining massive sums of money from their programs.
The bowl system in football is a laughable, inequitable, haphazard method of determining a champion. The only sure way for anyone to know who is truly the best is through a playoff system. Shorten the season, use the lower tier bowls to eliminate teams, and move up to another tier of bowls to decide who advances to the next round. Finish everything the week before the Super bowl. It can't be that difficult!
A problem in all major college sports and not just football is that athletes are under-compensated. Granted a college education in exchange for athletic talent is a fair trade, but these students often have basic financial needs that go unmet and coaches and alumni aren't allowed to help. Students are also forced to pay for tings like health insurance out of their own pockets and simultaneously not allowed to work to make money to pay for these things. Based on my personal experience with college athletics, as soon as I knew I could make anything more than $100,000 playing a sport I would leave school. The average starting salary in computer science is $40,000 and for other fields entry level positions often pay just $30,000 a year. Staying in school and taking the abuse simply makes no sense unless you come from a middle class or wealthy home, with parents that will support you should you be injured and need support to finish college. Schools just don't provide enough incentive to remain in school.
9.26.2002
Lately in my young substitute teaching career, I have been attempting to find jobs closer to my home. Tomorrow, I teach at Bryan Adams High, a scant fifteen minutes from my house according to MapQuest. This has had the affect of exposing me to more diverse student bodies. Until Tuesday, every school I had taught at was predominantly black and hispanic. Woodrow Wilson today was mostly Hispanic, but I did teach a class that was mostly white children - a first for me. The diference is shocking. All the kids are fairly equal in intelligence. The environment in many of the poorer neighborhoods just isn't conducive to learning.
The first thing I would do, if I were in charge of administrating DISD is clean the schools. I understand that repairs and renovations could be expensive, but cleaning is imperative - it's a health issue. I'd say the most important duty of the school district is providing a clean and safe environment for learning. We don't need computers or technology or more testing. We don't even necessarily need better pay for teachers. Dallas schools need to keep teachers in the classroom everyday. My showing up in a class essentially means that students will learn nothing even in the best of circumstances. If paying teachers more will keep them in the classroom than we should pay them more. The one magic bullet to save Dallas schools that no one mentions is parental involvement. We could do without half of the gimmicks and new tests if parents would get involved. If a child fails it is usually his parents' fault for not asking about his progress and disciplining him. My prescription for fixing performance of the school district.
Any school district that could do all three would be the number one public school district in the nation. If any school district could just get parents involved the improvement would be astounding.
The first thing I would do, if I were in charge of administrating DISD is clean the schools. I understand that repairs and renovations could be expensive, but cleaning is imperative - it's a health issue. I'd say the most important duty of the school district is providing a clean and safe environment for learning. We don't need computers or technology or more testing. We don't even necessarily need better pay for teachers. Dallas schools need to keep teachers in the classroom everyday. My showing up in a class essentially means that students will learn nothing even in the best of circumstances. If paying teachers more will keep them in the classroom than we should pay them more. The one magic bullet to save Dallas schools that no one mentions is parental involvement. We could do without half of the gimmicks and new tests if parents would get involved. If a child fails it is usually his parents' fault for not asking about his progress and disciplining him. My prescription for fixing performance of the school district.
- Clean the schools.
- Reduce teacher absenteeism.
- Have a massive campaign to get parents involved in the schools.
Any school district that could do all three would be the number one public school district in the nation. If any school district could just get parents involved the improvement would be astounding.
This is very lame I know, but on SaveKaryn.com there is a hilarious bit about selling people on eBay. Semi-direct link to it here.
Rangers play the spoiler again! Man! I love this. We can't get into the playoffs but we can make life difficult for everybody else in the West. Link from Msnbc.
All these links have me thinking, unless I fnd a way to really spread out and make my links really special, my links will be just a record of my web browsing - an online history file. Maybe I should post links to porno web sites? Nahh...
All these links have me thinking, unless I fnd a way to really spread out and make my links really special, my links will be just a record of my web browsing - an online history file. Maybe I should post links to porno web sites? Nahh...
Selig's daughter is out as president of the Brewers. Is anybody surprised? The Texas connection here is that Doug Melvin, architect of the Rangers' roster disasters before John Hart got here and really screwed things up, is the new General Manager. Great man for the job! Link from Msnbc.
Randy Moss isn't going to jail! Well not right away. At one time I was very sad that the Cowboys didn't draft him, as I am sure Jerry Jones was. Now I am not so sure. Link from Msnbc.
Realtors want to avoid the fate of travel agents. I stole this link from Shacknews. The original article from USA Today is here.
I just love how the Texas Rangers have assumed the role of spoiler in the American League West. I just stepped over to catch a little of the game and Mike Young just walked to force in a run witht eh bases loaded and Rafael Palmerio - one of three future Hall of Famers on the roster - coming to bat. Isn't it scary when the worst team in a division has talent?
9.25.2002
Blogging from Woodrow Wilson High. I really love the architecture of the campus. Red brick with white interlocking bricks at the corner and semi-gothic embellishments at the doorways and roof. The campus is old and very classy. Newer campuses in Dallas are ugly and soulless. I think the reason for the dramatic diference in architecture is age of the school and location. Lakewood, the neighborhood Woodrow Wilson is in, is a historic Dallas neighborhood (I know because all the street signs say so) and Woodrow Wilson is an older campus.
I am teaching World History in room 314 for Mr. Kirkpatrick. The class is predominantly hispanic, like the rest of the school, with a couple of black and white kids tossed into the mix. I parked in the student parking by mistake, and only realized it when I saw students getting out fo their cars next to me.
Nothing very interesting to tell yet today, and it doesn't appear that I'll have much opportunity for interaction with the students as the lesson plan dictates that most of the class period will be consumed by a test. I am going to go chill in the lounge now.
I am teaching World History in room 314 for Mr. Kirkpatrick. The class is predominantly hispanic, like the rest of the school, with a couple of black and white kids tossed into the mix. I parked in the student parking by mistake, and only realized it when I saw students getting out fo their cars next to me.
Nothing very interesting to tell yet today, and it doesn't appear that I'll have much opportunity for interaction with the students as the lesson plan dictates that most of the class period will be consumed by a test. I am going to go chill in the lounge now.
Another Bush appointee in trouble. You know the problem with my links is that most of the come from Slate.com, or Shacknews.com. Maybe readers should just bookmark salte and the shack and bypassme altogether? Nahh...
I just emailed the link to this blog to a friend moe liberal than I. I just wanted to say that I am not as right wing as I may sound at times... don't hate me! I did link Robert Wright's articles, and he's as liberal as one could care to get as far as I am concerned.
By the way, the thing that upset me most about the bus ride, is that I saw this cute Spanish chick and didn't have the courage to meet her. :( A burly Mexican laborer did however, to my dismay. I joked with them briefly while sitting next to Shannon on the way to Bryan. They were eating tacos, and I asked them, "Te gusta la comida?" The man answered, "No gusto." I replied with "Da me la comida." Of course the next thing I said was: "Como se dice 'joke'?"
Now that I have updated the world on the useless details of my life I'll return to google-pleasing links like this one and this one. Both are highly recommended. Que Sera Sera is a blogger featured link, and I linked Sourmash not only because of Bob's open letter to blogdom, but also because something morbid in me really enjoys watching somebody else wallow in depression.
Whew, this is the first post in three days! I have a lot of catching up to do.
Friday, I left for Bryan, Texas at the same time my parents were leaving for Kansas City, Missouri. I was riding the train downtown from my house and I had exactly two minutes to pack and getto the train station. I strode in greeted my mother, threw clothes in a bag, and strode out. (Note the use of the word strode. When I am in hurry I stride, rather than walk. I look like a man on a mission.) arrived at the train station with time to spare, which shocked me, and boarded the train. I promise that from now on, any time I wish to go downtown I shall ride the train. The train moves slowly but cuts such a direct path to all the major nerve centers in Dallas between my house in Lake Highlands and downtown Dallas that driving by car seems a little silly considering the cost in stress, gas, parking, and time. I arrived downtown less than a block away from the Greyhound station and had enough time before boarding my bus to stop at McDonalds to eat a heart disease burger. (YUM!)
The bus ride to Bryan was a disaster. Two bolts sheared off the bus before we arrived in Waco, Texas (Home of the Branch Davidians!). A bunch of college students (what a carefree designation, what I wouldn't give to be designated as such again) boarded the bus and sat with us for the next four hours at the bus station. I met a friendly girl from UT (University of Texas) named Shannon, whom I bought carrot cake for at a Dino's Diner in downtown Waco. Like all the girls I meet, she had a boyfriend. Which isn't her fault, she was nice enough. When we finally did get to Bryan she rushed off to ride into College Station with her friends without saying goodbye, probably so she could be present to kiss her boyfriend at the Aggies' traditional Midnight yell. Which was quite remarkable when you think about it - she made a nine to ten hour nookie run, or well it is possible it was chaste - with just the one kiss.
My friend picked me up in Bryan and we hung out for the next day, and he drove me back to Dallas Saturday night. I missed the performance by Martin Short and Tim Curry, but then who is Martin Short? I am fairly certain he is short, and I can name one movie (Innerspace) that he appeared in. Maybe I didn'tmis all that much.
Monday, I substituted for Bob Burns, at Florence Middle School in his science class. The students were relatively well behaved. The computer was borked though so no updates from school on Monday. Nothing especially remarkable happened that I can remember.
Today something remarkable happened today though. I taught a class with more than one white child in it. I realized it, after the fifth period. It wasn't a predominantly white class - I don't think that is possible in Dallas. Instead the kids were a charming rainbow of skin colors and nationalities. The class looked as if someone had interrupted a Benneton ad mid-shoot. The kids also thought I looked like the comedian Godfrey from the 7-Up commericals. Upon reflection, I realized I did - white shirt, tie, and blue green vest. (Godfrey must be a handsome brother!) Once again the children were amazed at my capcity for remembering their names - they told me that even the regular teachers needed two weeks to learn all the names. After school, the Nigerian teacher the next door down, whom all the kids feared and hated, gave me a short lesson on Nigerian geography. I gave him my business card. I consider us even.
Friday, I left for Bryan, Texas at the same time my parents were leaving for Kansas City, Missouri. I was riding the train downtown from my house and I had exactly two minutes to pack and getto the train station. I strode in greeted my mother, threw clothes in a bag, and strode out. (Note the use of the word strode. When I am in hurry I stride, rather than walk. I look like a man on a mission.) arrived at the train station with time to spare, which shocked me, and boarded the train. I promise that from now on, any time I wish to go downtown I shall ride the train. The train moves slowly but cuts such a direct path to all the major nerve centers in Dallas between my house in Lake Highlands and downtown Dallas that driving by car seems a little silly considering the cost in stress, gas, parking, and time. I arrived downtown less than a block away from the Greyhound station and had enough time before boarding my bus to stop at McDonalds to eat a heart disease burger. (YUM!)
The bus ride to Bryan was a disaster. Two bolts sheared off the bus before we arrived in Waco, Texas (Home of the Branch Davidians!). A bunch of college students (what a carefree designation, what I wouldn't give to be designated as such again) boarded the bus and sat with us for the next four hours at the bus station. I met a friendly girl from UT (University of Texas) named Shannon, whom I bought carrot cake for at a Dino's Diner in downtown Waco. Like all the girls I meet, she had a boyfriend. Which isn't her fault, she was nice enough. When we finally did get to Bryan she rushed off to ride into College Station with her friends without saying goodbye, probably so she could be present to kiss her boyfriend at the Aggies' traditional Midnight yell. Which was quite remarkable when you think about it - she made a nine to ten hour nookie run, or well it is possible it was chaste - with just the one kiss.
My friend picked me up in Bryan and we hung out for the next day, and he drove me back to Dallas Saturday night. I missed the performance by Martin Short and Tim Curry, but then who is Martin Short? I am fairly certain he is short, and I can name one movie (Innerspace) that he appeared in. Maybe I didn'tmis all that much.
Monday, I substituted for Bob Burns, at Florence Middle School in his science class. The students were relatively well behaved. The computer was borked though so no updates from school on Monday. Nothing especially remarkable happened that I can remember.
Today something remarkable happened today though. I taught a class with more than one white child in it. I realized it, after the fifth period. It wasn't a predominantly white class - I don't think that is possible in Dallas. Instead the kids were a charming rainbow of skin colors and nationalities. The class looked as if someone had interrupted a Benneton ad mid-shoot. The kids also thought I looked like the comedian Godfrey from the 7-Up commericals. Upon reflection, I realized I did - white shirt, tie, and blue green vest. (Godfrey must be a handsome brother!) Once again the children were amazed at my capcity for remembering their names - they told me that even the regular teachers needed two weeks to learn all the names. After school, the Nigerian teacher the next door down, whom all the kids feared and hated, gave me a short lesson on Nigerian geography. I gave him my business card. I consider us even.
9.21.2002
9.20.2002
You know a lot of people boost traffic to their sites by posting random photographs of unclothed women. My question is why? I've considered it, but the people who come for the nudity don't stay or visit more than once. I suppose you'd attract attention from search engines too; but again, it strikes me as cheating.
One thing I learned from another blogger (I forget which or I'd link him) is that adding more links attracts traffic - legitimate traffic. A node in a network is only as valuable as what can be reached from it, so the more connected a node is the better. Google exploits this principle by ranking sites based on its connections to other sites. Google rewards linking. Sites that are dead ends, that don't link you anywhere, don't get many hits. Unless, of course, they have some other value, like lots of pictures of undressed women.
I wanted to stay PG-13 so I added more links.
One thing I learned from another blogger (I forget which or I'd link him) is that adding more links attracts traffic - legitimate traffic. A node in a network is only as valuable as what can be reached from it, so the more connected a node is the better. Google exploits this principle by ranking sites based on its connections to other sites. Google rewards linking. Sites that are dead ends, that don't link you anywhere, don't get many hits. Unless, of course, they have some other value, like lots of pictures of undressed women.
I wanted to stay PG-13 so I added more links.
9.19.2002
Another link from the Escribitionist. Curious readers may also note another link from the 17th that I didn't include. I must say that it is the sickest thing I have seen in some time and is only funny if you have ovaries. Or not. Men may laugh too I suppose, if their women will let them.
The next dance craze from Europe? Some people still haven't learned the Macarena. I scored this link from the Escribitionist.
George W. is related to Lady Di and Churchill! Who would have thought it? Linked from msn.com. (Like Msn needs me to link to them!)
The strange and sordid tale of Aileen Wuornos. I ran into this link while surfing Norah's BlogJam. Aileen's execution for the murder of her first victim is coming any day.
Another one of those pics. Although I could swear that the picture is actually of Avril Lavigne. Just the way the eyes look at you, you know?
I feel much better today. My voice is almost all the way back, well I am not going to be joining any singing contests soon so it doesn't matter. I am not working today though. Listenting to Bic Runga's Sway. Beautiful song, and great for singing when your voice isn't that strong. It's written to be crooned not belted.
Never ever do business deals with Nigerians.. I say that and I am Nigerian. The problem is that Nigeria is populated by very educated thieves. Nigerians are also very well traveled so Nigerian con artists and criminals dot the globe.
My family recently experienced this when somebody intercepted a letter from my mother to my aunt. The con artist amended the letter to include a request for several hundred dollars to be delivered to a man who would arrive at an airport shortly, to repay a debt on my mother's behalf. My aunt was instructed to keep the matter secret. The ruse was only caught when my father called my aunt and handed the telephone over to my mother. My aunt immediately mentioned the money and my mother denied having sent her such a letter. My aunt read the letter to her and my mother was shocked to see how her letter had been repurposed.
The moral of the story is that you should never trust communications from Nigeria.
My family recently experienced this when somebody intercepted a letter from my mother to my aunt. The con artist amended the letter to include a request for several hundred dollars to be delivered to a man who would arrive at an airport shortly, to repay a debt on my mother's behalf. My aunt was instructed to keep the matter secret. The ruse was only caught when my father called my aunt and handed the telephone over to my mother. My aunt immediately mentioned the money and my mother denied having sent her such a letter. My aunt read the letter to her and my mother was shocked to see how her letter had been repurposed.
The moral of the story is that you should never trust communications from Nigeria.
Sick behavior by a weblogger
I just did a quick bit of ego-surfing and I was surprised by the result of putting my name in Google. This site does not come up once but a number of posts made to game programming lists do. Here are the links if anyone cares:
- GameProgrammer.Com Mailing List (by thread)
... Adrian Brown. No Subject, peter.bedford: RE:, Idahosa Edokpayi. No
Subject, Martin Olsson; No Subject, Bobby: Re:, Derold; RE:, Idahosa ...
www.gameprogrammer.com/archive/html/thrd2.html - 25k
- GameProgrammer.Com Mailing List (by thread)
... list, Tom Webb. hope u can help me!!!!! Nigel Freedom: RE:
hope u can help me!!!!! Idahosa Edokpayi: RE: hope u can ...
www.gameprogrammer.com/archive/html/thrd35.html - 28k -
- Yahoo! Groups : opengl-gamedev-l Messages :12747-12776 of 20967
... Idahosa I. Edokpayi, Tue 2/1/2000. 12757, Re: Change display mode on
the fly, notnot@x... Tue 2/1/2000. 12758, Re: Where is the open source
? ...
groups.yahoo.com/group/opengl-gamedev-l/messages/12747 - 21k
- Yahoo! Groups : opengl-gamedev-l Messages :12777-12807 of 20967.
.. Idahosa I. Edokpayi, Wed 2/2/2000. 12791, Re: Where is the open source
? Idahosa I. Edokpayi, Wed 2/2/2000. 12792, Re: I am a beginner. ...
groups.yahoo.com/group/opengl-gamedev-l/messages/12777 - 21k
- : By Date
... Ratcliff; Re: Sample Implementation Source Code and Console Targets Neal Tringham;
RE: Sample Implementation Source Code and Console Targets Idahosa I. Edokpayi; ...
apollo.iwt.uni-bielefeld.de/~ml_robot/ OpenGL-02-2000/date.html - 81k
- : By Thread
... Re: GLTrace 2 Keith Harrison. RE: GLTrace 2 Chris Jurney. Re: OpenGL window requirements
Neal Tringham; re: OpenGL window requirements Idahosa I. Edokpayi; Re: math ...
apollo.iwt.uni-bielefeld.de/~ml_robot/OpenGL-02-2000/ - 87k
- Geocrawler.com - gdalgorithms-list - 2002/3
... Mail archive - 2002-03. Thread/Subject, Author, Date/Time. ... Idahosa Edokpayi, 03/30/2002
23:01:02. ... Maltez, 03/25/2002 16:16:10. ... Idahosa Edokpayi, 03/25/2002 08:47:57. ...
www.geocrawler.com/archives/3/4856/2002/3/0/ - 30k
- Geocrawler.com - gdalgorithms-list - 2001/9
... Idahosa Edokpayi, 09/30/2001 17:37:45. ... Ken M, 09/30/2001 17:21:03. ... Jon
Watte, 09/30/2001 17:17:27. ... Idahosa Edokpayi, 09/30/2001 08:02:11. ...
www.geocrawler.com/archives/3/4856/2001/9/0/ - 30k
- The Blast Soccer Team
... Nosa's trading card photo. Top row from the left: Idahosa Edokpayi -assistant
coach (that's me!) , Tim McCarty - coach, Devin Dickinson - defender, Scott ...
www.utdallas.edu/~ninja/photos/blast_soccer_team.htm - 3k
- Personal Home Pages (at UEL)
... E Sogunwa. Noel East. Irene Ebong. Brian Eccleston. Aloysius Edoh. Uwa Edokpayi.
John ... Oluwabunmi Onadosu Dagunduro. Evelyn Onyango. Uche Onyemenem. Oretta Gayle. Idahosa ...
homepages.uel.ac.uk/ - 68k - 18 Sep 2002 -
- Biniunitedatl.com
... USA, Inc PO Box 434 Atlanta, GA 30301. MEMBERS. Mr. & Mrs. Sam Idahosa ... Relations)
Mr. & Mrs. Gabriel Ogbomo Mr. & Mrs. Dickson Aikhionbare Mr. Joseph Edokpayi Mr ...
www.biniunitedatl.com/html/members.htm - 4k
- Gmane -- GNU Mail To News And Back Again
... Joe Collins. 01.08. Re: [GD-General] Pong ball mechanics. Javier Arevalo.
31.07. [GD-General] Pong ball mechanics. Idahosa IO Edokpayi. Back to Top.
news.gmane.org/ thread.php?group=gmane.games.devel.general - 4k
It is interesting that my old personal homepage does not come up but a link to apage about my soccer team does. Weird
I now have some measure of understanding for people who conduct their lives by telephone. I used to conduct mine by email, but now that I am a substitute teacher, my wireless telephone is glued to my hand as soon as I walk in the door. I sleep with it under my pillow practically, which is the reason I get so little sleep. And when you expect a call and it doesn't come that is one of the worst feelings in the world. Trying to call somebody and not knowing why they don't answer drives me crazy; people very seldom answer when I call. I always feel like people are trying to avoid me, like I am annoying them. I know in my head it's not true but I can't help wondering.
On a happier note, I am feeling better. I'll go to work tomorrow if I can find any. Or I might not... I don't know, still waiting on that phone call.
I watched Fast Lane tonight and I was impressed. My Dad watched with me and he didn't like the sex, drugs, violence, and rock'n roll theme but I enjoyed it. I had been anticipating this show for some time and promised myself I'd watch the first episode. Now I have to find someone to tape it for me. :- (
On a happier note, I am feeling better. I'll go to work tomorrow if I can find any. Or I might not... I don't know, still waiting on that phone call.
I watched Fast Lane tonight and I was impressed. My Dad watched with me and he didn't like the sex, drugs, violence, and rock'n roll theme but I enjoyed it. I had been anticipating this show for some time and promised myself I'd watch the first episode. Now I have to find someone to tape it for me. :- (
9.18.2002
Just discovered that Dallas had on of the most unfavorable (at least to my way of thinking) male-to-female ratios in the country. If it wasn't for the fact that guys from all over swear up and down that Texas women simply look better, I'd be packing my bags now.
While I am thinking along these lines, I wanted to say maybe I should be examined by a doctor. I was just reading something about the biochemistry of love, and I'd like some heartless-rake elixir. Being chemically hardwired to favor being a nice guy is boring.
While I am thinking along these lines, I wanted to say maybe I should be examined by a doctor. I was just reading something about the biochemistry of love, and I'd like some heartless-rake elixir. Being chemically hardwired to favor being a nice guy is boring.
9.17.2002
Umm... no surprise today, maybe tomorrow.
The voice is all right so far, I scored some cough drops on the way to school. I feel better after eating some lunch. I want to take a nap though.
I had another kid get up and dance today. When I accused the kids of disrespect they claimed innocence. "If we was disrespecting you, we wouldn't do the classwork. We would just look at you crazy when you told us to do something."
The voice is all right so far, I scored some cough drops on the way to school. I feel better after eating some lunch. I want to take a nap though.
I had another kid get up and dance today. When I accused the kids of disrespect they claimed innocence. "If we was disrespecting you, we wouldn't do the classwork. We would just look at you crazy when you told us to do something."
I was just thinking about freak dancing again, and really it is simulated sex. Discovering freak dancing was a revelation for me; the idea that a woman - possibly multiple women - would willingly pretend to have sex with you in public, even when fully clothed, was mind-blowing. So it was immediately obvious that students freak-dancing was a bad thing; no one should be allowed to have that much fun in school, and certainly not a teacher!
I have a surprise for tomorrow's blog. Regular readers will be rewarded. :P Not that I have any regular readers. The thing I just realized, is that even though I only have each class for 90 minutes, I spend the entire 90 minutes falling in love with each group and I want the whole world to do the same. Even the kids who give me problems touch me.
Has anybody in their life had occassion to get up and freak-dance other students in class or watch someone else do it? I did today, during a "sheltered" English class. "Sheltered" is a term used in the DISD for a class consisting of kids who all speak the same language, in my case Spanish, and aren't quite ready for full-contact English classes yet. The kids told me that it was an ESL class, but I have learned something - the first rule of substituting is to never ask the kids anything since they will lie. The kids can't be trusted. The kids pull something new on me every day and each class has its own special trick. They usually get away with it too! I usually don't know I have been fooled till after they leave.
I am wondering how I will teach tomorrow with no voice. Somehow it seems wrong for a substitute to call in sick. More echinacea and sleep.
Kids always surprise me with their boldness. Today the kids wanted me to teach them how to dance. I have been known to freak-dance before, but somehow, freak-dancing students seemed to fall under the heading of
I am wondering how I will teach tomorrow with no voice. Somehow it seems wrong for a substitute to call in sick. More echinacea and sleep.
Kids always surprise me with their boldness. Today the kids wanted me to teach them how to dance. I have been known to freak-dance before, but somehow, freak-dancing students seemed to fall under the heading of
Things Not To Do.
Kind of like sleeping with students.9.16.2002
As rowdy as the kids are, I realized I don't really feel threatened at all. No disaffected white loners with firebombs and shutguns in Dallas public schools, Columbine would never happen in a Dallas school, especiall because we have metal detectors. On the other hand, I could certainly get shot in the parking lot coming to or leaving school. :P
Blogging between periods at Justin F. Kimball High. I suppose I should be glad that when teaching in the 'Cliff and the Grove(Oak Cliff and Pleasant Grove, neighborhoods in South Dallas for those not in the know) I should be grateful I am teaching students in AP classes. As rowdy as AP classes are, I am very frightened by the prospects of teaching really bad kids.
I am feeling slightly under the weather, but I can't afford to be ill. Time for the echinacea.
Before I go, I want to throw in some comments about Bush's Iraq policy. In a word, brilliant - Bush has pushed the Democrats in America into an unfavorable position before the election and forced the UN to accept war in Iraq or face irrelevancy. He challenged the UN to enforce the terms of its own treaty or watch as the US does it for them. Democrats are forced to acquiesce or go against public opinion and they also are distracted from the domestic agenda where they are at an advantage. Bush not only saves face but comes out looking like a commanding leader despite the internal strife in his administration.
I am feeling slightly under the weather, but I can't afford to be ill. Time for the echinacea.
Before I go, I want to throw in some comments about Bush's Iraq policy. In a word, brilliant - Bush has pushed the Democrats in America into an unfavorable position before the election and forced the UN to accept war in Iraq or face irrelevancy. He challenged the UN to enforce the terms of its own treaty or watch as the US does it for them. Democrats are forced to acquiesce or go against public opinion and they also are distracted from the domestic agenda where they are at an advantage. Bush not only saves face but comes out looking like a commanding leader despite the internal strife in his administration.
Cowboys 21, Titans 13. :)
Quincy Carter carried the offense today, a huge improvement over last week.The defense was a disruptive force and produced a touchdown. The Cowboys could actually be very good this year, the first week's embarassment notwithstanding. The only disappointment, was the run-blocking. Pass protection was very good but the Titans dominated the offensive line in running situation. Larry Allen's health had a lot to do with that.
I need to learn Spanish, just had to reject two jobs that required Spanish. I can muddle through a conversationin Spanish thanks to two semesters in college, but I am not confident eough in what I know to risk it.
Quincy Carter carried the offense today, a huge improvement over last week.The defense was a disruptive force and produced a touchdown. The Cowboys could actually be very good this year, the first week's embarassment notwithstanding. The only disappointment, was the run-blocking. Pass protection was very good but the Titans dominated the offensive line in running situation. Larry Allen's health had a lot to do with that.
I need to learn Spanish, just had to reject two jobs that required Spanish. I can muddle through a conversationin Spanish thanks to two semesters in college, but I am not confident eough in what I know to risk it.
9.15.2002
Went to a Dallas Burn soccer game with my brother tonight and scored a free "game-worn" jersey, i.e. it has been used by an exceedingly sweaty and anonymous soccer player. The jersey is wrinkled but doesn't smell. The number is eleven so the player was most likely a midfielder or perhaps a forward. Everybody advised that I dry clean the jersey before I frame it; I'll dry clean it, but I intend to wear it. The jersey has the greatest value to me when worn - no one is going to pay money for a jersey stained with sweat from an obscure soccer player in Dallas. It'll be my good luck charm. I had a blast and we went to the Old Mill Inn after the game for the "Group Leader" dinner. (Thank you Roger Allen!) The perks included were meeting the players, a coupon for a free drink, and entry in the raffle for Dallas Burn goodies (how I got the jersey). Notice that dinner is not listed anywhere as a perk of the "Group Leader" dinner. We discovered this after attempting to order the most expensive meals on the menu. Fortunately, the Old Mill was operating on a restricted menu that omitted all of the expensive items.
The only downside to the evening was that I was not in the company of a woman. I love my brother dearly, and I enjoy his company more than any other single person I have ever met in my entire life, but everywhere I go I feel like something is missing. When I lie on the couch watching television, my chest aches to feel the weight of someone leaning against it, and my arms encircle air as if to hold someone that should be there. I feel like a hollow man.
The only downside to the evening was that I was not in the company of a woman. I love my brother dearly, and I enjoy his company more than any other single person I have ever met in my entire life, but everywhere I go I feel like something is missing. When I lie on the couch watching television, my chest aches to feel the weight of someone leaning against it, and my arms encircle air as if to hold someone that should be there. I feel like a hollow man.
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