I am not in the business of excuses. I've never had any really good ones anyway. I didn't say that I don't give them. Just that, I didn't give very good ones. My pastor (from henceforth he will be "the Preacher", he's been that type of figure in my life that he deserves a one word name prefixed with a "the") pilloried me from the pulpit last night and promised to name names unless I apologized. As far as I know, unless somebody else has a website discussing the church's dirty secrets, the Preacher means to name mine. Certainly, the Preacher wouldn't name any of the people I mention since well not everybody knows and it is the Preacher's stated policy to not expose people unneccessarily. I am not sure it matters if the Preacher mentions my name. Who doesn't know? I don't know who, since I am not a part of the gossip mill anymore, (I made my last major contribution to gossip on September 2, 2002) but I operate on the assumption of full coverage gossip. I assume everyone who shakes my hand in church knows all of my dirty secrets already. My assumption is not entirely true, but it is a useful assumption for me. I don't really have any friends in the church. I know that I called a few people my friends, but I use the term loosely. They are more like acquaintances really. I'd recommend that everybody in the church I speak with on a regular basis disassociate themselves from me - don't worry, it won't hurt my feelings.
The Preacher told me that he's known for a while and hasn't treated me any different since he knew. Anybody who reads my blog can tell that recently I got wind that something was up, but the Preacher is right he hasn't treated me any differently since he's known. He made a comment to two people I speak with about not wanting to get involved with any business that I would start which I could have taken as hint but even that I attributed to other sins I had committed and it very well could have been I am not disputing the Preacher's claim of fair treatment. The Preacher's been making veiled references to my website for at least a week now, apparently hoping that I would come and talk to him. If he had spoken to my Mom first he would know that I would never ever do that.